I have this sad smile on my face, looking out at the garden and feeling a light breeze threw the screen door, I wouldn't mind a little intrusion on my thought train but friends have better things to do. Nothing but plain old me is there to catch my sighs and while the music I listen to heals my thoughts I have no idea what to do but to write everything out. At some stage in life I must of made a wrong turn because my friends have hopped onto a bus that stopped at a corner I never even saw. Everybody drifts away from me even as I make desperate swings at clasping at them, things seem to keep re-bounding at me, no-one listens and my words drop into a deep abyss. The weather is a reflection of my feelings, sad and lonely but no tears appearing. Some how I'm lost in a empty world of relationships and red strings, but none of them are connected to me, flowers sway ever so lightly in the wind and branches fall down with barely a sound. My heart has no beat for anyone special and all my hope for love is fading, at the moment I believe I'll be alone all my life even if my friends and family say I am cute in looks... but when did cute become anything but friend or little sister status? Confused as I am all I do is glance at the trees and flowers, such blissful beauty that I envy so much. I miss no-one and nothing from my past because I didn't abandon them they abandoned me in this swirling mist of agony and pain. Feeling a miss and out of it I begin to understand the lyrics of the music more clearly and I see more and more of the world in a less clear view. My head is thumping and I have to stop for my mind has run blank of words.